I feel a bit empty now

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I feel a bit empty now

Posted by PalmaDeColores - 2 weeks ago

Don't worry I'm not depressed, just feel empty because of something that happened on Discord, for privacy reasons I am not going to say their name, but it was quite sad, it was conflicting beliefs and mindsets.

I sometimes hate how immature I can be because of how it hurts people. I might shamelessly enjoy it during the while but later I feel guilty and remorseful. I guess I will spend time working on bettering myself rather than judging people and comparing myself to others. Because I sure as hell am an arrogant bastard for acting childish in the past.

I might also not use discord for a long time. After all a lot of my friendships ended there.

Now I'm questioning if I deserve being scouted on this website, am I really worthy of being able to be front-paged after what I did in my past? I guess only time will tell if I feel free from my sins.

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psychicpxl 2025-04-25 03:44:21

You can't blame or self hate yourself. That's only going to lead to more unhappiness. It's best to just move on and accept what happened, and try to learn from it. Don't worry, your art deserves to be seen by others

PalmaDeColores 2025-04-25 03:44:21

I was unscouted... I guess I'll just have to try harder next time. Thank you, now I can rebuild what I lost again and again.

SouSTAR 2025-04-25 03:52:09

I don't know what happened, but it would surprise me if it was actually something worth being called "a sin", or calling yourself "arrogant".

I don't know what happened, but anyway arrogant people wouldn't look back at what they have done and wouldn't want to better themselves next. So you're not an "arrogant bastard".

Also, friendships comes and goes. It hurt yes, but it's no reason to beat yourself up for it.

And yes you deserve the scouting, not because you're a good guy, but because you draw well! Being a good person make you deserving of a better treatment though, so start to treat yourself better, by stopping being so hard on yourself. :)

AnonVillainy 2025-04-25 22:47:11

I'm 23 now, I actively try to be positive with people wherever I can, but I must have spent at least 21 years actively being a bitch and looking for conflict. And no matter how old I get, I will always make mistakes and do things that I regret. I'm human. And so are you. You can't go through a human lifetime without stepping on someone's toes. You've got to learn when you can, to be as charitable and forgiving towards yourself, as you are to other people. You mustn't hold yourself to a standard, you don't expect from anyone else. Or a standard that you can never reach as a human being. That isn't fair. Anyways, much love dude. And watch out for scams/bots on DA. <3

I feel a bit empty now

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