One thing that's ironic about me is that I never really read any comic books (Besides Codex Black but that shit was ass) and yet I want to make a comic book myself? The thing is that I was never given the chance to read a comic book before because of my heavily religious mother. She sees comic books as demonic even though they are just books with pictures on them, not much different to regular books. Yet she wants me to read normal books? First of all, no offense to any book readers, but if the story ain't interesting, I ain't reading a bunch of words on paper without looking at drawings or pictures. My mom's logic makes zero sense too, considering she literally took away my copy of Codex Black (The second book), I get the comic was fucking dogshit but taking it away from me just because of the she hates the Aztecs is just hypocritical considering she is part indigenous. And then she has the audacity to say I should read the Bible, even though I already know literally almost everything in it considering I am Christian, and I have to know about it. I love the Bible but if it's the only book I get to read, that stuff starts getting repetitive, I want to see other people's work (Besides Shi-Gu, fuck that weirdo and his l0lli obsessed fans) and I want to know other perspectives from different people, I actually want to have fun and admire other people's work but because of my mom who's holding me back from enjoying my hobbies, I am forced into this endless loop of going to work, going to college, showering, sleeping, waking up, and repeat. I am not even allowed to go meet up with friends because of how closed off I feel to the world and because I am scared of how my mom would react to me hanging around my friends. I hate this so much, but I deal with it considering I have a resilient mind unlike other people. I am not weak, I will never let myself be weak again because I hate that feeling, I hate feeling like a loser, but I know I have no choice but to follow orders and to not lose hope, because I am not a quitter. I don't want to fail, I will continue down this path even after I surpass even the people I admire. Yet I will never be satisfied, I will always want more and more and that's my greatest flaw.